Not much to talk about, again. I'm just sitting here watching my dog and cat play. It's quite adorable.
I have been thinking a lot about what quote I was going to use for you guys today, and I think I'm going to go with this one:
"If being an egomaniac means I believe in what I do and in my art or music, then in that respect you can call me that... I believe in what I do, and I'll say it." -John Lennon.
And here's why; I love this quote. It genuinely makes me laugh when I tell people that I believe in myself or that I don't doubt what it is I'm doing, I get deemed conceited. I'm not conceited at all. Actually, quite the contrary, I'm actually pretty self-conscious most of the time. But, if I'm doing something that I know I'm good at and I say it out loud, that doesn't make me narcissistic, or vain, or conceited, or any of those things. What John Lennon is saying is that he's going to believe in himself and in his own abilities and if he is called an "egomaniac" so be it.
Sometimes in life, you have to be your own cheerleader. And, I think that society has deemed that as unacceptable. Which is sad, because sometimes you need to cheer for yourself. I say do it. I say shout it out. I say give 'em hell. You're amazing and you should show it. =]
I love you guys, and I hope you enjoy these little rambling posts.
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
July 25, 2011.
Today won't be much writing for you guys to endure. Just a quote for you guys, like I promised in the last blog.
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.-- Mahatma Gandhi"
Its crazy to me that we think that we're being so strong when someone wrongs us and we hold onto that. We think, "Yeah, I'm still mad at you, this hurts doesn't it?" But, in reality, the stronger ones are the ones who can forgive and let go. They're the ones who can say, "Okay, you wronged me, but holding onto this is toxic." You cannot be weak to forgive someone. I love this quote because it rings true to me. Anger doesn't equal strength.
I love you guys.
Jenny-Lynn. <3
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.-- Mahatma Gandhi"
Its crazy to me that we think that we're being so strong when someone wrongs us and we hold onto that. We think, "Yeah, I'm still mad at you, this hurts doesn't it?" But, in reality, the stronger ones are the ones who can forgive and let go. They're the ones who can say, "Okay, you wronged me, but holding onto this is toxic." You cannot be weak to forgive someone. I love this quote because it rings true to me. Anger doesn't equal strength.
I love you guys.
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Sunday, July 24, 2011
July 24, 2011.
Hello all! So, today is a day that I can write something I haven't been able to write in a long time. I'm at peace with myself. After months, years even, of being upset and angry and emotional, I am finally at a place where I can take a breath and be happy. =]
Nothing major has changed. Still in school, which I love, still unemployed, and still single. But, I'm on a job hunt and I'm okay with maybe not finding a job until I graduate. I'm just looking to see if maybe I can find something beforehand. Being single isn't terrible anymore. I get to hang out with whoever I want, whenever I want, and there's no hard feelings with anyone or fighting with someone I care about.
Everyone and their brothers know that I was having a hard time coping with some recent upsets in my life, and I'm glad to be out of that place.
People have asked me how I did it and how I could be so upset one day and the next, just be totally fine with my life. It's simple, actually. I started working on myself. Working out, trying to be the person I always wanted people to see me as, and it's working. I was able to say, "Okay, this happened and it hurts. But, what can I do about it?"
This may sound like something you don't have to say, but you can't change the past. A lot of people think that by dwelling on one particular event, somehow they can change how it happened or at least how they handled it. You can't. That event took place, you handled it the way you handled it, and now the only thing you can change is how you let it affect the rest of your life. Constantly living in that place of your mind will only make you relive that painful moment over and over again. Or you could leave that memory in the past where it belongs and move on. Which is what I did.
For the people who have read this and said that I was "pining" over a certain someone, you're obviously not reading the same blog I am writing. This is the only place in my life where I can be completely honest about how I'm feeling about everything that's happening in my life. The good and the bad. So, that's what I do. I write whatever comes to my mind and hope that at the end of the post, the string of letters before me on the computer screen makes some sort of sense. Lately, I've needed to vent a few things about that certain someone, but that's over now. I'm glad to have him as a friend in my life and that's all I could ask for. =]
A person who reads this blog asked me why I always say "I love you" at the end of my blogs, and if it was to anyone in particular. It is, actually. It's to you. It's to the one who sits through my incessant rambling and tries to make sense of it in your head. It's to the one who relates to what I write and nods their head in agreement as they pore over their computer screens. I say "I love you" to the people who actively try to decipher what I'm trying to say. And I say it because I mean it.
He also asked me, "If you had to choose one phrase or saying or quote to live by, what would it be?"
My answer to that is not so simple. The thing is, I don't want to live by something that someone else once said. I am pretty sure what he meant by that question was if there were any quotes that inspired me. And to that question, yes there are. I'll share some with you guys over the course of the next few blogs.
That's all for today.
I love you.
Jenny-Lynn. <3
" There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain." -Audrey Hepburn
Nothing major has changed. Still in school, which I love, still unemployed, and still single. But, I'm on a job hunt and I'm okay with maybe not finding a job until I graduate. I'm just looking to see if maybe I can find something beforehand. Being single isn't terrible anymore. I get to hang out with whoever I want, whenever I want, and there's no hard feelings with anyone or fighting with someone I care about.
Everyone and their brothers know that I was having a hard time coping with some recent upsets in my life, and I'm glad to be out of that place.
People have asked me how I did it and how I could be so upset one day and the next, just be totally fine with my life. It's simple, actually. I started working on myself. Working out, trying to be the person I always wanted people to see me as, and it's working. I was able to say, "Okay, this happened and it hurts. But, what can I do about it?"
This may sound like something you don't have to say, but you can't change the past. A lot of people think that by dwelling on one particular event, somehow they can change how it happened or at least how they handled it. You can't. That event took place, you handled it the way you handled it, and now the only thing you can change is how you let it affect the rest of your life. Constantly living in that place of your mind will only make you relive that painful moment over and over again. Or you could leave that memory in the past where it belongs and move on. Which is what I did.
For the people who have read this and said that I was "pining" over a certain someone, you're obviously not reading the same blog I am writing. This is the only place in my life where I can be completely honest about how I'm feeling about everything that's happening in my life. The good and the bad. So, that's what I do. I write whatever comes to my mind and hope that at the end of the post, the string of letters before me on the computer screen makes some sort of sense. Lately, I've needed to vent a few things about that certain someone, but that's over now. I'm glad to have him as a friend in my life and that's all I could ask for. =]
A person who reads this blog asked me why I always say "I love you" at the end of my blogs, and if it was to anyone in particular. It is, actually. It's to you. It's to the one who sits through my incessant rambling and tries to make sense of it in your head. It's to the one who relates to what I write and nods their head in agreement as they pore over their computer screens. I say "I love you" to the people who actively try to decipher what I'm trying to say. And I say it because I mean it.
He also asked me, "If you had to choose one phrase or saying or quote to live by, what would it be?"
My answer to that is not so simple. The thing is, I don't want to live by something that someone else once said. I am pretty sure what he meant by that question was if there were any quotes that inspired me. And to that question, yes there are. I'll share some with you guys over the course of the next few blogs.
That's all for today.
I love you.
Jenny-Lynn. <3
" There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain." -Audrey Hepburn
Sunday, July 17, 2011
July 17, 2011.
Hey all! So yes, I know, it's been way longer than it should have been since the last time I wrote to you. But, I've been thinking about you all! I promise.
What? You don't believe me? >_<
So, life is good as of right now. I've been hanging out with some really awesome people lately. I'm friends with everyone in my class again. And I just .. feel happy. I feel fulfilled.
Jon still pops into my mind every once in a while and I still think about how it was with him. But, I've come to terms with the fact that he's not ready for a relationship with me, and I don't deserve any less that someone who is not only willing and ready, but someone who yearns for me. Every once in a while, he'll like my status, or comment on a post or something, and I think about him. And every once in a while when I see his name, I get a little sad. But, then I remember that love lost is better than to never love. And I remember that he's happy. And that makes me happy. In short, he will always have a place in my heart but I will not allow that place to fill up my entire being. =]
As I said, I've been hanging out with some cool people lately. They've all helped me to realize that I am special and that I have a lot to offer this world. A couple of them stand out more to me than everyone else. I don't really know how to explain it. I know I don't want a serious relationship right now. But, there is a certain someone out there who is really making me second guess that decision...
I had one guy, who I barely knew, tell me that he was in love with me. Of course, I did a huge, "whoa! what?!" And we haven't really spoken much since. I didn't mean to hurt him, but he caught me off guard. Not something I was expecting. He keeps telling me that he's sorry he said it but he really feels it. And I keep telling him to stop saying it. First off, we knew each other a while ago. I've changed since then. Second, when we did know each other, it was only a work relationship. There was no personal relationship there. Third, I haven't talked to him in about a year and a half. Lastly, I've only been reconnected with him for about 2 weeks. It's weird. But, I dont know. I digress.
So, yeah, life is good right now. I just hope it stays this way. <3
And as always, know that I love you and I think about you constantly. Know that you are the reason I wake up in the morning, and you're what I think about at night. You're perfect, and I would never change you. <3
Love,
Jenny-Lynn.
What? You don't believe me? >_<
So, life is good as of right now. I've been hanging out with some really awesome people lately. I'm friends with everyone in my class again. And I just .. feel happy. I feel fulfilled.
Jon still pops into my mind every once in a while and I still think about how it was with him. But, I've come to terms with the fact that he's not ready for a relationship with me, and I don't deserve any less that someone who is not only willing and ready, but someone who yearns for me. Every once in a while, he'll like my status, or comment on a post or something, and I think about him. And every once in a while when I see his name, I get a little sad. But, then I remember that love lost is better than to never love. And I remember that he's happy. And that makes me happy. In short, he will always have a place in my heart but I will not allow that place to fill up my entire being. =]
As I said, I've been hanging out with some cool people lately. They've all helped me to realize that I am special and that I have a lot to offer this world. A couple of them stand out more to me than everyone else. I don't really know how to explain it. I know I don't want a serious relationship right now. But, there is a certain someone out there who is really making me second guess that decision...
I had one guy, who I barely knew, tell me that he was in love with me. Of course, I did a huge, "whoa! what?!" And we haven't really spoken much since. I didn't mean to hurt him, but he caught me off guard. Not something I was expecting. He keeps telling me that he's sorry he said it but he really feels it. And I keep telling him to stop saying it. First off, we knew each other a while ago. I've changed since then. Second, when we did know each other, it was only a work relationship. There was no personal relationship there. Third, I haven't talked to him in about a year and a half. Lastly, I've only been reconnected with him for about 2 weeks. It's weird. But, I dont know. I digress.
So, yeah, life is good right now. I just hope it stays this way. <3
And as always, know that I love you and I think about you constantly. Know that you are the reason I wake up in the morning, and you're what I think about at night. You're perfect, and I would never change you. <3
Love,
Jenny-Lynn.
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