August 4, 2011.

Hey all! So, there's some stuff I get to actually write today! We'll do it in sections; school, family, relationships, friends.

School: So, I'm doing okay in school. I still love it. It still intrigues the crap out of me. But, I'm starting to think maybe I'm not good enough to do this kind of work. I mean, I graduate in 2 months and I don't think I'm anywhere near where I wanted to be at this point.I mean, I can give a mean back rub. But, nothing life changing. Which is what I want. I want my skills to be profound. I want to be awesome. I want people to want a massage from me because they know it's going to be amazing. I think I'm going to start getting way more serious about it, though. Really put my nose to the grind stone. I'll keep you guys updated on that.

Family: I need my own place. I'm going to kill my brother and my dad if I have to live with them for much longer. Seriously, it's constant arguing between them and I just can't take it. It's like living with my mom and dad all over again. And when they're not arguing, my dad is telling me how I need to be living my life. Like, really? Don't get me wrong, my dad is probably the best friend I have. He's known me since I was born, he's been there through every bad breakup and every crazy scenario I've had to go through. But, I don't need his life lessons anymore. See, I'm talking to this guy (more in the Relationships section) and the first thing my dad says when I'm talking to him about it is "take it slow." Like, come on now dad. I'm fucking excited for this. I'm happy as hell that this guy came into my life. Can you just pretend to be happy too? Seriously? I know, he's just looking out for what's best for me, he doesn't want me to get hurt again, but I'm happy. Just ... let me be happy. Plus, when have I ever in my life done what other people felt was the "ordinary" or what society deemed as the guidelines in anything. Especially relationships. I fly by the seat of my pants. I do whatever feels right in the situation I'm in. Ever relationship is different. Whether that's a friendship or a romantic relationship, or even a family member. They are all unique, so you have to treat them that way.  Anyway...got that off my chest.

Relationships: Okay, so I touched on this in the last section. I'm talking to this guy. He'll remain anonymous for the time being, seeing as how we're not officially dating or being exclusive or anything yet. I promise to tell you his name if/when that happens. =] He's really great, so far. We had a date Sunday and we were supposed to hang out for like 2 hours or something for lunch. We ended up hanging out for 12 hours. Yes, twelve. We went from lunch, to just walking Main Street, to perusing a "nerd store" as he put it, to getting frozen yogurt (which I had never had before this day), to going back to my house and hanging out, to going to his place and meeting his brand new nephew and playing some video games and such, to going out to dinner, to going BACK to his house and playing even more video games, and then back to my house. It was great. I didn't get tired of being around him, I just wanted to stay longer. Haha. He dropped me off at my house and it sucked at first but then just the thought of seeing him again at some point in the future just made me happy. =] It's making me smile right now.
My last blog was about this guy. Obviously, it was not a hypothetical situation. I have given up the other guys that were trying to court me by just saying that they weren't what I was looking for at the moment and that I'd rather say it now then drag it out and hurt them at a later date. They all understood.
I hope this keeps happening. =] <3

Friends: Not much change to report here, really. I have a close friend who is currently being fucked over by a gigantic cunt face. I won't get into the details here but it pisses me off. >=/ I'm still friends with that guy that started dating my cousin, kind of. He doesn't really talk to me as much anymore but I think it's more because he's a little busier than he used to be. I miss him and our antics but I'm glad he's happy. =]


That is all I have to report to you wonderful people.
"But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you."  


Jenny-Lynn. <3