Hello all! So, today is a day that I can write something I haven't been able to write in a long time. I'm at peace with myself. After months, years even, of being upset and angry and emotional, I am finally at a place where I can take a breath and be happy. =]
Nothing major has changed. Still in school, which I love, still unemployed, and still single. But, I'm on a job hunt and I'm okay with maybe not finding a job until I graduate. I'm just looking to see if maybe I can find something beforehand. Being single isn't terrible anymore. I get to hang out with whoever I want, whenever I want, and there's no hard feelings with anyone or fighting with someone I care about.
Everyone and their brothers know that I was having a hard time coping with some recent upsets in my life, and I'm glad to be out of that place.
People have asked me how I did it and how I could be so upset one day and the next, just be totally fine with my life. It's simple, actually. I started working on myself. Working out, trying to be the person I always wanted people to see me as, and it's working. I was able to say, "Okay, this happened and it hurts. But, what can I do about it?"
This may sound like something you don't have to say, but you can't change the past. A lot of people think that by dwelling on one particular event, somehow they can change how it happened or at least how they handled it. You can't. That event took place, you handled it the way you handled it, and now the only thing you can change is how you let it affect the rest of your life. Constantly living in that place of your mind will only make you relive that painful moment over and over again. Or you could leave that memory in the past where it belongs and move on. Which is what I did.
For the people who have read this and said that I was "pining" over a certain someone, you're obviously not reading the same blog I am writing. This is the only place in my life where I can be completely honest about how I'm feeling about everything that's happening in my life. The good and the bad. So, that's what I do. I write whatever comes to my mind and hope that at the end of the post, the string of letters before me on the computer screen makes some sort of sense. Lately, I've needed to vent a few things about that certain someone, but that's over now. I'm glad to have him as a friend in my life and that's all I could ask for. =]
A person who reads this blog asked me why I always say "I love you" at the end of my blogs, and if it was to anyone in particular. It is, actually. It's to you. It's to the one who sits through my incessant rambling and tries to make sense of it in your head. It's to the one who relates to what I write and nods their head in agreement as they pore over their computer screens. I say "I love you" to the people who actively try to decipher what I'm trying to say. And I say it because I mean it.
He also asked me, "If you had to choose one phrase or saying or quote to live by, what would it be?"
My answer to that is not so simple. The thing is, I don't want to live by something that someone else once said. I am pretty sure what he meant by that question was if there were any quotes that inspired me. And to that question, yes there are. I'll share some with you guys over the course of the next few blogs.
That's all for today.
I love you.
Jenny-Lynn. <3
" There is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don't need a bedroom to prove my womanliness. I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples off a tree or standing in the rain." -Audrey Hepburn
