Hey all!
Started my job today! It was amazing!!! I work at Edible Arrangements now. And its so fun. The people I work with are pretty awesome, thus far. The fruit is delicious. If you have never gotten one of their arrangements, I highly recommend it. Let's do a play by play shall we? Okay, 8 o'clock, I show up. The boss is late. So I waited around outside with a girl I work with, we shall call her E. E was waiting outside munching on some Chick-Fil-A. We got to talking about the job. Then the boss showed up. His name, for our purposes, will be D. D unlocked the door, we went in, he showed me how to clock in and all that jazz.
Then I started learning the fun part. The actual bouquets! I got to make a bunch of them and they are so fun! The chocolate dipped strawberries are .. SO GOOD!
I learned pretty quickly and D thinks I'll fit in really well. =]
In other news, I feel quite .. confused today. I feel like I don't know what to do next. Or where to go next. Especially in the love life. I don't feel like getting into details right now, but I promise you'll all get details soon enough.
Okay then. I love you guys so much! I can't wait to tell you guys some more about my job and hopefully soon about a relationship... =/
Love
Jenny-Lynn. <3
P.S. HI JUAN!!
Monday, August 29, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
August 28, 2011.
You know what I love? I love my life right now. Ha! Seriously though, I have made amends with so many people that I thought were going to hate me forever. It's fantastic. Also, I'm meeting new people. People who have been invaluable to my learning and growing in life.
You know what I hate? I hate that I have had to cut some people out of my life due to the toxicity they brought with them. It's sad and I hate doing it, but I know it's better for me in the long run.
I just had a bit of a scare, I tried to log in to my blog and it kept telling me that there was no blog under that name. I almost cried. I would have lost everything. Turns out, I'm just an idiot who was putting in the wrong email address. Ha. yeah....Go me.
Let's see, let's see, let's see, let's see...Oh! Okay. So, I have a job now. I work at a place that makes these awesome fruit flower bouquets. I start Monday. Which I'm superrrr excited about! =D I needed a job very badly. Doing better in school, somewhat.
Relationship status = still single. But, I am loving where I am with myself. Seriously. It's a great time meeting a bunch of new people and being able to wonder who he's going to be and when he's going to come along. I thought I knew but ... maybe not.
The thing is, when I told this guy that he was what I wanted, I didn't quite get the desired response. Which is totally fine. But, it made me think. And maybe he is that guy, but maybe .. maybe he's not. I do adore him and I care about him so much. And I miss him so much. We'll see what happens.
Anyway all, I'm headed out for the evening. I will update you guys on my first day of work tomorrow! =]
I love you!!!
Jenny-Lynn. <3
You know what I hate? I hate that I have had to cut some people out of my life due to the toxicity they brought with them. It's sad and I hate doing it, but I know it's better for me in the long run.
I just had a bit of a scare, I tried to log in to my blog and it kept telling me that there was no blog under that name. I almost cried. I would have lost everything. Turns out, I'm just an idiot who was putting in the wrong email address. Ha. yeah....Go me.
Let's see, let's see, let's see, let's see...Oh! Okay. So, I have a job now. I work at a place that makes these awesome fruit flower bouquets. I start Monday. Which I'm superrrr excited about! =D I needed a job very badly. Doing better in school, somewhat.
Relationship status = still single. But, I am loving where I am with myself. Seriously. It's a great time meeting a bunch of new people and being able to wonder who he's going to be and when he's going to come along. I thought I knew but ... maybe not.
The thing is, when I told this guy that he was what I wanted, I didn't quite get the desired response. Which is totally fine. But, it made me think. And maybe he is that guy, but maybe .. maybe he's not. I do adore him and I care about him so much. And I miss him so much. We'll see what happens.
Anyway all, I'm headed out for the evening. I will update you guys on my first day of work tomorrow! =]
I love you!!!
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Saturday, August 20, 2011
August 20, 2011.
Hey guys! So. Today is already shaping up to be quite annoying. I got woken up way too early by my stupid freaking cat. Then, right as I'm falling back to sleep my dad decides he's going to start making as much noise as possible because he's awake. I'm so effing tired.
The past couple days have been somewhat ... interesting. Kinda hanging out with this new guy. We'll see how that goes.
Had a fight with Justin. Justin was supposed to be my best friend. But, he fell in love with me and when he realized that I wasn't going to have those same feelings for him, he got really upset. Understandably. However then he started taking it out on me. He just started being a jerk and saying really rude things to me. He was saying even ruder things behind my back though. I saw a blog he posted about me and I just snapped. What kind of best friend goes behind someone's back and trashes them on a blog? He started telling my brother that he felt like I had used him because he bought me a dress, some shoes, and "all my birthday drinks" and I hadn't talked to him since. Which, when he said this it had been about 24 hours since I last spoken to him and that was only because I was still too drunk to form a coherent thought. Also in his blog, and in our conversation, he started trashing this guy that I had been talking to. The one from the few previous blogs that I was really starting to like but he told me we weren't serious relationship material. He said that the guy was a douchebag for not wanting to be with me. I couldn't disagree more. This guy is actually quite nice and I still hang out with him. I wasn't in love with the guy, I just liked him. When he told me that I wasn't what he was looking for in a long term girlfriend, those feelings subsided. Now, him and I are just friends and I'm find with that. The crazy part though is that Justin didn't pay for all of my birthday drinks. He was going to, and he said he would multiple times. But, when the bill came, his card was declined. And guess who stepped in to pay for the rest of it? Yeah, that "doucher" guy he's been trashing.
I think that the biggest reason I can't deal with any of this though is that its a constant self-pity party with Justin. It's constantly "oh look at me, I'm sad" and "my life is terrible" and "no one will ever love me." Yes, I know, as a best friend, I am supposed to be there for him and listen to him and all that. And I don't mind talking someone I care about off a ledge every so often. But, come on. Every conversation? It's annoying. It doesn't even seem genuine. It just seems like he does a lot of it for the attention.
I know it seems like I'm being pretty hypocritical right now. Pretty much airing my grievances on a blog which is kind of what started the fight to begin with. But, I'm now. I've said all of this to his face and he knows exactly how I feel. I'm just tired of being pushed around because I'm too empathetic. I start feeling bad for people and understanding the feeling of not being good enough and I get taken advantage of. I sit there and talk to this guy about his problems every day and hear his talk about how low he is. Every day. For hours. I can't have a conversation with him about my life because if I say that my day was anything better than terrible, I get this whole "pity me" routine even harder. About how lucky I am to have a good day and he wishes he could. Come on man...I just .... I need some happier friends I guess.
I'm not cutting this guy out of my life completely, not yet anyway. I just need some space for now. Some time to not worry about his "issues" and crap.
No joke, just last night, he asks me about this new guy. After I told him what was going on, which is literally just us hanging out and enjoying our time together for now, I ended up having to get off the computer. But, instead of saying, "okay I'll talk to you later." He says, "Okay, I'll try to be here." I figured he just meant he would try to be around. So I said, "Okay, well, if not we'll just talk another time." At this point he tells me, "you're not understanding me, I'll try to be here." I mean, come on, seriously? Whatever, I'm done talking about it now.
On another note, my 21st birthday was awesome. I didn't really get a chance to tell you guys about it. I got all dressed up and went to Quizzo at Applebee's with about 10 friends. We all had a pretty good time. I got insanely hammered. The drinks of the night included: (in order)
#1 - A mudslide - I ordered this drink and the waiter asked, in front of my friends who are trying to get me wasted, "Would you like to make that a Mucho for a dollar more?" Unanimously, my friends say, "Yes! Mucho!" So, I had that.
#2 - A red-headed slut. - My friends told me I had to order a shot, this is the one that was chosen.
#3 - A pickleback. - If you're like and any of my friends, you have never heard of a pickleback. This is a shot of Jack Daniel's followed immediately by a shot of pickle juice. If you like pickles, it's not bad. Kind of dangerous because, you don't really taste the Jack at all after the pickle juice.
#4 - A mind eraser. - This one was suggested by an acquaintance at Quizzo and then consumed. Not a great drink but, it will do what it's advertised to do.
#5 - Tequila. - 5 shots of it to be exact.
**At this point, I was intoxicated. And then we all went to a different bar. A bar that is now called, "Mad Macs." It used to be known as Matilda's. So, I get there, tell the bartender it's my 21st birthday and the drinks started flowing. Again**
#6 - A blowjob shot. - Which again, I had never heard of. This is a shot glass of Baileys served inside of a martini glass. So, it's a martini glass with a smaller glass of Baileys inside of it. Then covered in whipped cream. The idea of the drink is to put your hands behind your back and try to grab the shot glass out of the whipped cream using only your mouth.
At about this time, I don't really remember much else. I remember one of the DJs, Xixa, buying me a shot but I can't remember what it was. I ended up losing my ID. First night out, already lost the ID. Haha.
So yeah, that's been my week. Pretty much. I've decided not to divulge too many details about this new guy until something becomes more concrete with him.
Okay, all. I love you guys to no imaginable extent. And I will try to talk to you guys more following this blog. No promises though.
Love,
Jenny-Lynn. <3
The past couple days have been somewhat ... interesting. Kinda hanging out with this new guy. We'll see how that goes.
Had a fight with Justin. Justin was supposed to be my best friend. But, he fell in love with me and when he realized that I wasn't going to have those same feelings for him, he got really upset. Understandably. However then he started taking it out on me. He just started being a jerk and saying really rude things to me. He was saying even ruder things behind my back though. I saw a blog he posted about me and I just snapped. What kind of best friend goes behind someone's back and trashes them on a blog? He started telling my brother that he felt like I had used him because he bought me a dress, some shoes, and "all my birthday drinks" and I hadn't talked to him since. Which, when he said this it had been about 24 hours since I last spoken to him and that was only because I was still too drunk to form a coherent thought. Also in his blog, and in our conversation, he started trashing this guy that I had been talking to. The one from the few previous blogs that I was really starting to like but he told me we weren't serious relationship material. He said that the guy was a douchebag for not wanting to be with me. I couldn't disagree more. This guy is actually quite nice and I still hang out with him. I wasn't in love with the guy, I just liked him. When he told me that I wasn't what he was looking for in a long term girlfriend, those feelings subsided. Now, him and I are just friends and I'm find with that. The crazy part though is that Justin didn't pay for all of my birthday drinks. He was going to, and he said he would multiple times. But, when the bill came, his card was declined. And guess who stepped in to pay for the rest of it? Yeah, that "doucher" guy he's been trashing.
I think that the biggest reason I can't deal with any of this though is that its a constant self-pity party with Justin. It's constantly "oh look at me, I'm sad" and "my life is terrible" and "no one will ever love me." Yes, I know, as a best friend, I am supposed to be there for him and listen to him and all that. And I don't mind talking someone I care about off a ledge every so often. But, come on. Every conversation? It's annoying. It doesn't even seem genuine. It just seems like he does a lot of it for the attention.
I know it seems like I'm being pretty hypocritical right now. Pretty much airing my grievances on a blog which is kind of what started the fight to begin with. But, I'm now. I've said all of this to his face and he knows exactly how I feel. I'm just tired of being pushed around because I'm too empathetic. I start feeling bad for people and understanding the feeling of not being good enough and I get taken advantage of. I sit there and talk to this guy about his problems every day and hear his talk about how low he is. Every day. For hours. I can't have a conversation with him about my life because if I say that my day was anything better than terrible, I get this whole "pity me" routine even harder. About how lucky I am to have a good day and he wishes he could. Come on man...I just .... I need some happier friends I guess.
I'm not cutting this guy out of my life completely, not yet anyway. I just need some space for now. Some time to not worry about his "issues" and crap.
No joke, just last night, he asks me about this new guy. After I told him what was going on, which is literally just us hanging out and enjoying our time together for now, I ended up having to get off the computer. But, instead of saying, "okay I'll talk to you later." He says, "Okay, I'll try to be here." I figured he just meant he would try to be around. So I said, "Okay, well, if not we'll just talk another time." At this point he tells me, "you're not understanding me, I'll try to be here." I mean, come on, seriously? Whatever, I'm done talking about it now.
On another note, my 21st birthday was awesome. I didn't really get a chance to tell you guys about it. I got all dressed up and went to Quizzo at Applebee's with about 10 friends. We all had a pretty good time. I got insanely hammered. The drinks of the night included: (in order)
#1 - A mudslide - I ordered this drink and the waiter asked, in front of my friends who are trying to get me wasted, "Would you like to make that a Mucho for a dollar more?" Unanimously, my friends say, "Yes! Mucho!" So, I had that.
#2 - A red-headed slut. - My friends told me I had to order a shot, this is the one that was chosen.
#3 - A pickleback. - If you're like and any of my friends, you have never heard of a pickleback. This is a shot of Jack Daniel's followed immediately by a shot of pickle juice. If you like pickles, it's not bad. Kind of dangerous because, you don't really taste the Jack at all after the pickle juice.
#4 - A mind eraser. - This one was suggested by an acquaintance at Quizzo and then consumed. Not a great drink but, it will do what it's advertised to do.
#5 - Tequila. - 5 shots of it to be exact.
**At this point, I was intoxicated. And then we all went to a different bar. A bar that is now called, "Mad Macs." It used to be known as Matilda's. So, I get there, tell the bartender it's my 21st birthday and the drinks started flowing. Again**
#6 - A blowjob shot. - Which again, I had never heard of. This is a shot glass of Baileys served inside of a martini glass. So, it's a martini glass with a smaller glass of Baileys inside of it. Then covered in whipped cream. The idea of the drink is to put your hands behind your back and try to grab the shot glass out of the whipped cream using only your mouth.
At about this time, I don't really remember much else. I remember one of the DJs, Xixa, buying me a shot but I can't remember what it was. I ended up losing my ID. First night out, already lost the ID. Haha.
So yeah, that's been my week. Pretty much. I've decided not to divulge too many details about this new guy until something becomes more concrete with him.
Okay, all. I love you guys to no imaginable extent. And I will try to talk to you guys more following this blog. No promises though.
Love,
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Thursday, August 18, 2011
August 18, 2011.
Hey guys! So, today is going to be a bit of a different blog. Not so much a rundown of my life more than kind of a response to a blog someone did about me. So, here goes.
First off, I know you have feelings for me. I have told you multiple times that the way I love you is that best friend sort of way.
Second, I know you bought me this amazing dress for my birthday. And the shoes. What I did not know was that it was just to get in my pants. I thought that you were doing it because it was my birthday and that you wanted to. And you sat right across me from me all night. He sat at the end of the table. I kissed him, yes. And yes, me and him had our falling out but, he is far from a "doucher." The fact of the matter is, if I want a physical relationship with someone, you are not the person who gets to decide whether or not I'm allowed. You're supposed to be my best friend but you have a whole lot of things to say about me when I'm not around you...
Third, I know you stuck around and cleaned up after my drunken self. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me. Again, what I didn't know was that it was all some sort of plan to get in my pants...I didn't know it was going to be thrown in my face just because you didn't get what you wanted out of the evening.
Fourth, who are you to tell me that you're the greatest guy in my life? Don't I get a say in this? You lie to me, a lot. You talk shit about me behind my back. You use when you promised me you would try to quit. And you wrote this entire blog about me while under the influence...the fact of the matter is, I've had the drama of addiction in my life for way too long and I refuse to allow myself to be pulled back into that world. I could not date you even if I did have feelings for you in that capacity, just because of your addictions. However, I don't choose who I fall for and who I don't. Unfortunately, you are not the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. We've had this conversation so many times...I thought we were finally past this. I guess we can't move past it. Maybe that's what you want. Maybe you keep throwing this in my face as a passive-aggressive way of getting rid of me. If so, it's working beautifully.
Lastly. Yes. You are the BEST FRIEND. That's what I thought we had talked about numerous times. You are my best friend. Or, I thought you were. But now I'm finding out that not only are you saying that I used you but now you're blaming me for how I feel about other people and not you. You're saying that I'm a bad person because I didn't fall in love with you the way you fell in love with me. By the way, which douchebag boyfriend humped my cousin? What the hell are you even talking about? Oh and guess what?! Those duties go with being a best friend, dude. You become the shoulder to cry on when I get hurt. That's what best friends are. I've been a shoulder for you about a million times. I don't mind it. Finding out now what you've been saying behind my back though....that may change things a bit. I think you should do some soul searching and some maturing before you talk to me again... =/
Okay guys. Thanks so much for putting up with this little response to a rant. Pretty much, it's all self-explanatory. This is just my way of reciprocating the same level of disrespect that this guy has shown me. I'm a grown person. You can come to me with any problems you have with me, to my face, and I'll respect you for it. Go behind my back to my brother, or to the internet, you can kiss that respect goodbye.
OH YEAH! And as for the guy who was staring at my ass....THAT'S WHY I PICKED THE DRESS IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!! I wanted to look hot. I wanted guys (especially that one) to look at me and yearn for me. That was the fucking plan. Oh well, live and learn I guess.
Okay guys! I love you guys so much and I know that this one was a bit on the negative side, but I'll be back soon with some sort of positivity. =] Love you. <3
Jenny-Lynn. <3
First off, I know you have feelings for me. I have told you multiple times that the way I love you is that best friend sort of way.
Second, I know you bought me this amazing dress for my birthday. And the shoes. What I did not know was that it was just to get in my pants. I thought that you were doing it because it was my birthday and that you wanted to. And you sat right across me from me all night. He sat at the end of the table. I kissed him, yes. And yes, me and him had our falling out but, he is far from a "doucher." The fact of the matter is, if I want a physical relationship with someone, you are not the person who gets to decide whether or not I'm allowed. You're supposed to be my best friend but you have a whole lot of things to say about me when I'm not around you...
Third, I know you stuck around and cleaned up after my drunken self. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me. Again, what I didn't know was that it was all some sort of plan to get in my pants...I didn't know it was going to be thrown in my face just because you didn't get what you wanted out of the evening.
Fourth, who are you to tell me that you're the greatest guy in my life? Don't I get a say in this? You lie to me, a lot. You talk shit about me behind my back. You use when you promised me you would try to quit. And you wrote this entire blog about me while under the influence...the fact of the matter is, I've had the drama of addiction in my life for way too long and I refuse to allow myself to be pulled back into that world. I could not date you even if I did have feelings for you in that capacity, just because of your addictions. However, I don't choose who I fall for and who I don't. Unfortunately, you are not the person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. We've had this conversation so many times...I thought we were finally past this. I guess we can't move past it. Maybe that's what you want. Maybe you keep throwing this in my face as a passive-aggressive way of getting rid of me. If so, it's working beautifully.
Lastly. Yes. You are the BEST FRIEND. That's what I thought we had talked about numerous times. You are my best friend. Or, I thought you were. But now I'm finding out that not only are you saying that I used you but now you're blaming me for how I feel about other people and not you. You're saying that I'm a bad person because I didn't fall in love with you the way you fell in love with me. By the way, which douchebag boyfriend humped my cousin? What the hell are you even talking about? Oh and guess what?! Those duties go with being a best friend, dude. You become the shoulder to cry on when I get hurt. That's what best friends are. I've been a shoulder for you about a million times. I don't mind it. Finding out now what you've been saying behind my back though....that may change things a bit. I think you should do some soul searching and some maturing before you talk to me again... =/
Okay guys. Thanks so much for putting up with this little response to a rant. Pretty much, it's all self-explanatory. This is just my way of reciprocating the same level of disrespect that this guy has shown me. I'm a grown person. You can come to me with any problems you have with me, to my face, and I'll respect you for it. Go behind my back to my brother, or to the internet, you can kiss that respect goodbye.
OH YEAH! And as for the guy who was staring at my ass....THAT'S WHY I PICKED THE DRESS IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!! I wanted to look hot. I wanted guys (especially that one) to look at me and yearn for me. That was the fucking plan. Oh well, live and learn I guess.
Okay guys! I love you guys so much and I know that this one was a bit on the negative side, but I'll be back soon with some sort of positivity. =] Love you. <3
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Sunday, August 14, 2011
August 14, 2011.
Hey all! So, it's August 14th! Which means it's my good friend Justin and my grandfather's birthday. =] It's also 2 days until I turn 21! <3 Woot!
So, that anonymous guy? Yeah, it didn't work out. Apparently I'm not the kind of girl he wants to settle down with. Which sucked to hear but at the same time, I'm glad he said it now rather than wait months down the road.
New topic, though! I hung out with my best friend, Justin today. Not the Justin whose birthday it is, another one. We had such a good time! I mean, seriously, it was awesome. We went to different stores looking for my birthday present (a new dress), and then ended up visiting his grandmother for a bit. We ate us some Waffle House, which was hilarious. And we got to just laugh a lot and have some good conversations. I love being his best friend and I love that he's mine. Because, honestly, he's the closest thing I have to a gay best friend. lol
Um, let's see, let's see, let's see. Oh! Me and Oliver are friends again. We talked about everything that happened and decided it was stupid to go on hating each other. So, we're attempting a friendship. We'll see how that goes.
Lets see....my dog and cat are still very cute. And they're still best friends which is awesome.
I graduate from school in about 2 months, which is insane.
I might have a job lined up when I graduate so that's good.
So, everything's going really good right now. =]
It's exciting. <3
The best part of my days are the ones where I get to talk to you guys though. I love you guys and I miss you when I'm not talking to you. =]
Love,
Jenny-Lynn. <3
So, that anonymous guy? Yeah, it didn't work out. Apparently I'm not the kind of girl he wants to settle down with. Which sucked to hear but at the same time, I'm glad he said it now rather than wait months down the road.
New topic, though! I hung out with my best friend, Justin today. Not the Justin whose birthday it is, another one. We had such a good time! I mean, seriously, it was awesome. We went to different stores looking for my birthday present (a new dress), and then ended up visiting his grandmother for a bit. We ate us some Waffle House, which was hilarious. And we got to just laugh a lot and have some good conversations. I love being his best friend and I love that he's mine. Because, honestly, he's the closest thing I have to a gay best friend. lol
Um, let's see, let's see, let's see. Oh! Me and Oliver are friends again. We talked about everything that happened and decided it was stupid to go on hating each other. So, we're attempting a friendship. We'll see how that goes.
Lets see....my dog and cat are still very cute. And they're still best friends which is awesome.
I graduate from school in about 2 months, which is insane.
I might have a job lined up when I graduate so that's good.
So, everything's going really good right now. =]
It's exciting. <3
The best part of my days are the ones where I get to talk to you guys though. I love you guys and I miss you when I'm not talking to you. =]
Love,
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Sunday, August 7, 2011
August 8, 2011.
Hey all! I'm sure you will have noticed by now that the background to my blog has changed. It's no longer a depressing scene. =] It's because I am no longer writing depressed blogs. <3
The past 24 hours has been remarkable. It's all because of the boy from the previous two blogs. I'm not saying he is the sole epicenter of my happiness. There are a couple of things that are helping that along the way. The biggest one is just being in touch with myself. Just knowing who I am and knowing what I want out of life.
But, I really do like him. And I'm pretty sure he likes me too. =]
On a side note, 8 more days!! <3
Okay, not too much happening today to talk about. I'm pretty tired and my dog is sick. So, on that note, I shall write again soon.
Oh, but remember, just because there's a new guy in life, it doesn't mean I'm not thinking about you. I still love you more than you could imagine. More than its probably healthy for a girl to love an anonymous, faceless person. =]
Love,
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
August 4, 2011.
Hey all! So, there's some stuff I get to actually write today! We'll do it in sections; school, family, relationships, friends.
School: So, I'm doing okay in school. I still love it. It still intrigues the crap out of me. But, I'm starting to think maybe I'm not good enough to do this kind of work. I mean, I graduate in 2 months and I don't think I'm anywhere near where I wanted to be at this point.I mean, I can give a mean back rub. But, nothing life changing. Which is what I want. I want my skills to be profound. I want to be awesome. I want people to want a massage from me because they know it's going to be amazing. I think I'm going to start getting way more serious about it, though. Really put my nose to the grind stone. I'll keep you guys updated on that.
Family: I need my own place. I'm going to kill my brother and my dad if I have to live with them for much longer. Seriously, it's constant arguing between them and I just can't take it. It's like living with my mom and dad all over again. And when they're not arguing, my dad is telling me how I need to be living my life. Like, really? Don't get me wrong, my dad is probably the best friend I have. He's known me since I was born, he's been there through every bad breakup and every crazy scenario I've had to go through. But, I don't need his life lessons anymore. See, I'm talking to this guy (more in the Relationships section) and the first thing my dad says when I'm talking to him about it is "take it slow." Like, come on now dad. I'm fucking excited for this. I'm happy as hell that this guy came into my life. Can you just pretend to be happy too? Seriously? I know, he's just looking out for what's best for me, he doesn't want me to get hurt again, but I'm happy. Just ... let me be happy. Plus, when have I ever in my life done what other people felt was the "ordinary" or what society deemed as the guidelines in anything. Especially relationships. I fly by the seat of my pants. I do whatever feels right in the situation I'm in. Ever relationship is different. Whether that's a friendship or a romantic relationship, or even a family member. They are all unique, so you have to treat them that way. Anyway...got that off my chest.
Relationships: Okay, so I touched on this in the last section. I'm talking to this guy. He'll remain anonymous for the time being, seeing as how we're not officially dating or being exclusive or anything yet. I promise to tell you his name if/when that happens. =] He's really great, so far. We had a date Sunday and we were supposed to hang out for like 2 hours or something for lunch. We ended up hanging out for 12 hours. Yes, twelve. We went from lunch, to just walking Main Street, to perusing a "nerd store" as he put it, to getting frozen yogurt (which I had never had before this day), to going back to my house and hanging out, to going to his place and meeting his brand new nephew and playing some video games and such, to going out to dinner, to going BACK to his house and playing even more video games, and then back to my house. It was great. I didn't get tired of being around him, I just wanted to stay longer. Haha. He dropped me off at my house and it sucked at first but then just the thought of seeing him again at some point in the future just made me happy. =] It's making me smile right now.
My last blog was about this guy. Obviously, it was not a hypothetical situation. I have given up the other guys that were trying to court me by just saying that they weren't what I was looking for at the moment and that I'd rather say it now then drag it out and hurt them at a later date. They all understood.
I hope this keeps happening. =] <3
Friends: Not much change to report here, really. I have a close friend who is currently being fucked over by a gigantic cunt face. I won't get into the details here but it pisses me off. >=/ I'm still friends with that guy that started dating my cousin, kind of. He doesn't really talk to me as much anymore but I think it's more because he's a little busier than he used to be. I miss him and our antics but I'm glad he's happy. =]
That is all I have to report to you wonderful people.
"But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you."
Jenny-Lynn. <3
School: So, I'm doing okay in school. I still love it. It still intrigues the crap out of me. But, I'm starting to think maybe I'm not good enough to do this kind of work. I mean, I graduate in 2 months and I don't think I'm anywhere near where I wanted to be at this point.I mean, I can give a mean back rub. But, nothing life changing. Which is what I want. I want my skills to be profound. I want to be awesome. I want people to want a massage from me because they know it's going to be amazing. I think I'm going to start getting way more serious about it, though. Really put my nose to the grind stone. I'll keep you guys updated on that.
Family: I need my own place. I'm going to kill my brother and my dad if I have to live with them for much longer. Seriously, it's constant arguing between them and I just can't take it. It's like living with my mom and dad all over again. And when they're not arguing, my dad is telling me how I need to be living my life. Like, really? Don't get me wrong, my dad is probably the best friend I have. He's known me since I was born, he's been there through every bad breakup and every crazy scenario I've had to go through. But, I don't need his life lessons anymore. See, I'm talking to this guy (more in the Relationships section) and the first thing my dad says when I'm talking to him about it is "take it slow." Like, come on now dad. I'm fucking excited for this. I'm happy as hell that this guy came into my life. Can you just pretend to be happy too? Seriously? I know, he's just looking out for what's best for me, he doesn't want me to get hurt again, but I'm happy. Just ... let me be happy. Plus, when have I ever in my life done what other people felt was the "ordinary" or what society deemed as the guidelines in anything. Especially relationships. I fly by the seat of my pants. I do whatever feels right in the situation I'm in. Ever relationship is different. Whether that's a friendship or a romantic relationship, or even a family member. They are all unique, so you have to treat them that way. Anyway...got that off my chest.
Relationships: Okay, so I touched on this in the last section. I'm talking to this guy. He'll remain anonymous for the time being, seeing as how we're not officially dating or being exclusive or anything yet. I promise to tell you his name if/when that happens. =] He's really great, so far. We had a date Sunday and we were supposed to hang out for like 2 hours or something for lunch. We ended up hanging out for 12 hours. Yes, twelve. We went from lunch, to just walking Main Street, to perusing a "nerd store" as he put it, to getting frozen yogurt (which I had never had before this day), to going back to my house and hanging out, to going to his place and meeting his brand new nephew and playing some video games and such, to going out to dinner, to going BACK to his house and playing even more video games, and then back to my house. It was great. I didn't get tired of being around him, I just wanted to stay longer. Haha. He dropped me off at my house and it sucked at first but then just the thought of seeing him again at some point in the future just made me happy. =] It's making me smile right now.
My last blog was about this guy. Obviously, it was not a hypothetical situation. I have given up the other guys that were trying to court me by just saying that they weren't what I was looking for at the moment and that I'd rather say it now then drag it out and hurt them at a later date. They all understood.
I hope this keeps happening. =] <3
Friends: Not much change to report here, really. I have a close friend who is currently being fucked over by a gigantic cunt face. I won't get into the details here but it pisses me off. >=/ I'm still friends with that guy that started dating my cousin, kind of. He doesn't really talk to me as much anymore but I think it's more because he's a little busier than he used to be. I miss him and our antics but I'm glad he's happy. =]
That is all I have to report to you wonderful people.
"But what I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that, even though I do not know you, and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you."
Jenny-Lynn. <3
Monday, August 1, 2011
August 1, 2011.
15 more days until I turn 21! <3
Hey guys. Whats been up? It's been a while since I've written and not much has really happened. Um, I have a hypothetical situation for you. Let's say you are talking to a couple of guys, just ya know, going out and hanging out and stuff, and then you meet someone. Like, someone that you can't believe you never knew existed but now that you do, they're all you can think about. Should you just go for it, even though all of the other guys were technically "first" and you told all of them that you didn't want a relationship? I mean, the thing is, let's say you really didn't want a relationship but then you met this guy. The one that you can't stop thinking about. And now you reallllyyyy want a relationship with him. What would you do in that situation?
A) Go for it and just get rid of the guys you were dating casually and hanging out with. Not think twice about it.
or
B) Don't go for it because of the other dudes...
Hypothetically, of course. =/
Hey guys. Whats been up? It's been a while since I've written and not much has really happened. Um, I have a hypothetical situation for you. Let's say you are talking to a couple of guys, just ya know, going out and hanging out and stuff, and then you meet someone. Like, someone that you can't believe you never knew existed but now that you do, they're all you can think about. Should you just go for it, even though all of the other guys were technically "first" and you told all of them that you didn't want a relationship? I mean, the thing is, let's say you really didn't want a relationship but then you met this guy. The one that you can't stop thinking about. And now you reallllyyyy want a relationship with him. What would you do in that situation?
A) Go for it and just get rid of the guys you were dating casually and hanging out with. Not think twice about it.
or
B) Don't go for it because of the other dudes...
Hypothetically, of course. =/
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