June 20, 2011.

Holy shit. So, the weekend starts off with some doucher telling me he wants a massage then not being home for his appointment. At this point I'm almost on E in my car and was depending on the money from said massage to get gas to go to school that night. But, of course....
Then, Jon picks me up, and guess who gets the worst migraine of her natural born life? This girl.
Go home, wake up Friday morning, go to a job interview. In which they tell me that I'm a great candidate for the job, that they're going to push my application through but at the very end of the interview tell me that the position is for nights and weekends....-_-
Right on my application it said that I was not available nights because of school. Why would they even interview me?! Whatever. Friday night, I go to Jon's.
Saturday morning. Wake up, play some board games, hang out with Jon, go to his cousin's graduation party, go home, do nothing all night. Fight with and almost lost Jon. Made up. =]
Today! My favorite day of the weekend. Wake up at Jon's with Laceybug. (my dog.) <3 Whom we picked up last night because I missed her. Get dressed and all that mess, go to Jon's grandparent's house for a little fathers day celebration. Went out to eat with my dad  and brother. =] Then, we went swimming with Jon and his friends.
This brings us to the epitome of my evening. Finding out that one of my BEST friends is now dating someone. Who happens to be my cousin. The one who has hated me since forever ago. Not only that but he's so delusional that he thinks that she's going to be totally okay with our friendship. I mean, hello! we almost dated! There were feelings involved. And there's already a long history of distrust between me and my cousin. My cousin and I. Whatever. Me and my best friend were supposed to do a hilarious video together for his YouTube channel. However, that will no longer be happening because even though MY significant other finds it totally non-threatening, his will not. Simply put, I think I just lost another great friend. =/

But, at least I still have you. I love you for sticking through it all with me. <3
Love,
Jenny-Lynn. <3

June 9, 2011.

Hey everyone! Tonight is a very frustrating night. Let's start out with this. I waited almost an hour for my ride home from school tonight. By myself by the way, because no one in my class has the courtesy to sit there for a bit and wait with me. I'm sorry. Two people asked me if I wanted them to sit with me while I waited. Two people. Out of about 15. That's kind of ridiculous. But, whatever. It just shows that some people are genuinely good people and others aren't. And it shows which is which.
Then, I get home and my brother is taken to the Emergency Room because he was coughing so much he literally couldn't take a breath without coughing up a lung. So, that's happening.
Then, I look on Facebook and see that Jon has posted a couple things. And that his ex has commented on or liked literally EVERYTHING he has posted. It's just very ... annoying.
My self-esteem isn't quite up to par tonight. I dont know why. Nothing in particular happening. Just hating everything I see again. I really hope this doesn't last too long. I hate these phases. One day, I look in the mirror and go "Wow, I look cute." Get all happy, all that stuff. And the next day, I look in the mirror and want to punch it. Tonight is the latter of the two.
I just wish I could hold Jon tonight. Have him tell me that everything is okay and that I'm gorgeous. All of the wonderful things he says to me on a regular basis.
Well, that's all there is to it tonight. Sorry for the short, not-so-happy blog guys. Remember that I love you and that I'm so glad you're in my life.
Love,
Jenny-Lynn <3